Sunday, 15 April 2018

Something from the heart...

It's taken me a bit of time to write this post.. just because I didn't really know what I wanted to say. however I really wanted to write this to share and release some feelings.  My close friend passed away a couple of months ago and it was incredibly hard for me to deal with as she was not just my friend but also my confidante and mentor. Having never really dealt with the death of someone close to me, I kind of just shut down and instead didn't really deal with it, I tried to shut away my feelings which only made me feel worse. I felt like I couldn't do anything, I was pretending that I could but inside I really wasn't mentally there. My life kind of felt like I was in a constant stand-still.. as if I wanted to try to keep going but the ability to do so was not really there.

Nothing seemed to really soothe the way that I was feeling, I thought that my usual method of writing in my journal would help but I still felt the same at the end of the day. It was only when I went to the funeral a few weeks ago that I finally dealt with my feelings and can truly say that I am now feeling somewhat at peace in my grieving process. The death of my friend was a solemn reminder of our own mortality and how much we really should make use of the time that we do have because we do not know when that time will come to an end.

Her incredible presence as a role model in my life and the amazing woman that she was has really inspired me to keep going even through the tough times and keep persevering in everything that I do. Even with the negative and horrible experiences that we may have had in our life or that we are currently going through, it is important to remember the good things that we do have and appreciate them as well as be the strong people that we all are.

I just want everyone to remember no matter what you are going through, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel even if it seems a long way away.

Rest in peace my dear friend P....

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